Surrender

The moment that i’ve finally decided to surrender was the exact same moment that i first felt complete.

Some genius once mentioned that change is the only constant thing in this world. and even though i couldn’t agree more, I still find it hard to accept change. I found it even harder to change myself. When you’re accustomed to doing something over and over again for the longest time, it’s almost impossible to completely change your perception of self and quit certain acts that you normally do.

Giving up things may be hard like hell, but it’s completely a whole new realm of hard when you actually have to give up things you’ve learned to live with..

Not until you actually find something, or someone, that’s reason enough for you to change the things about yourself that is actually wrong. it’s always either you’re just too ashamed to admit it.. or too afraid to quit it.

Surrendering everything to God not only makes everything easier, it also puts you into proper perspective. Admitting that you just cant do it on your own does not make you hopeless, but rather hopeful that things can still be done and can still change. He is there, and He is powerful in ways we can ever imagine. All we have to do is ask for help.

It’s an everyday struggle, but it’s a battle worth being in. At the end of the day, when i take into account the things i’ve done and actually realize that i’ve overcome the challenges, that amidst the temptation i’ve still managed to be the person God wants me to be, i get the single best feeling in the world (well aside from love- but that’s a whole new blog entry, hehe)..

And that, my friends, somehow makes me feel complete.

Mark 8:36
For what shall it profit a man if he shall gain the whole world, but lose his own life?